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my throat really hurts and i hate it :(
i'm really hungry and lunch is taking foreverrr.
but at least my lunch will be yummy, and not just a sandwich like usual.

dieting is hard.
what's harder is working out everyday! where did i get the motivation I used to have?! I wish i could find it again.

i hate that prom was the worst night of my life. and that i cant tell my friends because theyll hate alex. i hate that he hasnt called, and that i miss him so much already. im in too deep. in way too deep. but im not sure i want to get out. in fact, i dont want to. i love the boy. agghh if he calls tonight ill be alright.

to hell with school. fuck truancies.
im really afraid that daniels fund is going to reject me :(
my biggest fear is that nelms will mess wth my grades from not going to the gym :(
fuck im really scared now.
i wish this was over with already.
and i wish alex would call :(

:) proms figured out.
i feel mucho better.
friends are pissing me off. fuck you guys.
alex and i will have our own prom night :)
gah i loveee himmm.
even though he pissed me off today too.
sigh.
why am i so impatient lately?
all is good. 15 more days.

i miss him i miss him i really wanna kiss him.
:) tomorrow. tomorrow ill kiss him and hug him and feel fantastic!
ahhh to be young & in love.

UHMMM..
i've abandoned my poor eljay...
awww.
i'm sorry.
:[
life is good.
it has its ups & downs.
great relationship with mommy.
uuhmmm..girls suck.
fun classes.
ben is my bestest friend in the whole world.
ben* has text messaging, haha.
whoduhthunkit.
and uhmmm..
that's it.
i love myspace
www.myspace.com/bombasticlove__x

so jacob's planning to go to CU-Boulder.
150 miles away.
i'm so fucking sad.
i can't do long distance.
we all know i'm too needy.
damn it I don't wanna be mad.
but i can't help it.

I love him.